God began to take me on a journey about the sacredness of sex and marriage. I knew about this but since my spiritual awakening, I see things with a totally different lens now. I learned about soul-ties. A soul-tie is an emotional and spiritual connection with someone that is rooted so deep, you feel that you two will always be linked. It’s an inexplicable, powerful emotional bond to another person. Soul ties can occur in any relationship. However, it’s most strongly felt after being intimate or having sex with someone. Once I grasped what this really meant, and going through my own experience of breaking off a soul tie, I made a vow of celibacy with God. I don’t want to intertwine my soul nor be connected with a man on that level unless he is my husband.
Is it hard? Oh, yes indeed it is! But I want to honor God with my body. This passage of scripture is written in the Message version:
“There’s more to sex than mere skin on skin. Sex is as much spiritual mystery as physical fact. As written in Scripture, “The two become one.” Since we want to become spiritually one with the Master, we must not pursue the kind of sex that avoids commitment and intimacy, leaving us more lonely than ever—the kind of sex that can never “become one.” There is a sense in which sexual sins are different from all others. In sexual sin we violate the sacredness of our own bodies, these bodies that were made for God-given and God-modeled love, for “becoming one” with another. Or didn’t you realize that your body is a sacred place, the place of the Holy Spirit? Don’t you see that you can’t live however you please, squandering what God paid such a high price for? The physical part of you is not some piece of property belonging to the spiritual part of you. God owns the whole works. So let people see God in and through your body.
1 Corinthians 6:16-20 MSG
When I read this with my new spiritual glasses, I was like “Ok God! Yup! I understand!”
Side note – this scripture verse helps me in a few areas when it comes to my temple and caring for it.
So far, the journey of celibacy hasn’t been difficult at all. I have so many other things that I’m focused on that serve as great ways to refocus my attention and energy. However, I am in a place where I’m ready to start dating again. Celibacy is easy when you aren’t attracted to someone, lol!
Once God does align me with someone, I’m looking forward to the journey of waiting until our wedding night to know each other. I desire to do things differently than they were done before. The years prior to my first marriage were years of trying to find love through promiscuity. When I think about it now, I remember how empty I felt afterwards. I don’t want to feel that. I desire friendship, deep spiritual connection and like-mindedness from whomever God sends my way.
But for now, I’m just going to keep moving forward, loving myself, and growing with Jesus!
